oh bo. (x)
body image bullshit
what people don’t realize is that everyone has their own demons, fears, and just certain things that they downright hate about themselves. people only know what other people tell. other people only know what you tell. you hate yourself because you know more about yourself than any other person. every embarrassing moment or flaw, every friend you’ve ever lost, every fight and argument you’ve ever gotten into, you’re the only person who can recollect it all. you’re the only person who can cram it all together into one ball of frustration and hate, and use it against yourself.
what needs to be done is a self-affirmation. you need to realize that every moment in this world is unique and special. nothing that is happening right now, at this very second, will ever be the same again. no bug will be in the exact same position as before, while your leg is crossed over the other in such a manor and the way your fingers tap the keyboard will change each time you tap. your breathe will change and your blinking rate will vary and your hair won’t fall the exact same way is it did the other day. every moment is far from beautiful, but it sure as shit is unique.
embrace the embarrassing moments and the fights you get into with your parents. embrace the imperfections not only in you but around you, fix them or shrug them off. think about another book shelf in another continent, another country and think about how close it could be to looking the same as yours with just one difference, and how that difference makes a million differences. think of the things you have in common with someone yet the things that vary. think about how many people are smoking a cigarette at the same time you are, but how different each situation would be. how someone could be silent with theirs while you strike up a conversation while someone else strikes up a match and shares with strangers. think of the similarities in conversations while you smoke cigarettes and think of the differences hidden in the similarities that many others would never be able to find. think about how much you think and adore it.
think of the fact that i’m not sober and am probably not making sense.
think about yourself and embrace everything you hate. it’s what you’ve got.
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